winged by prayer

I don't blog like ever anymore. its interesting. this was such a good way for me to vent for awhile and than i just stopped, probly because nobody was following me except anna and I was like well this isnt even relevant to anybody. but i suppose that is not a good reason to write. i wrote originally just to put my thoughts out there so i guess ill write some more.
armed by faith and winged by prayer. its a line from a song- the Jesus I my Cross I have Taken song. i love it. i've probly listened to it 4 times now i as write this.
and Hymn by Jars of Clay.
Come let us Return to the Lord.
Lord I need to return to you. Im not necisarily off track or away I'm just busy and cluttered and not focussed on You, but I want to be.

I'm thinking about this summer, I'm thinking about all the posibilities in my life right now and it is a little overwhelming. I get distracted from whats important sooo easily. Like by petty fights and my selfishness. by stupid things that dont matter. so i'm sitting here reminding myself that I am bound for the promised land. If i find in myself a desire that this world cannot meet, the obvious answer is that I was not meant for this world. thanks CS lewis for being brilliant.

my guys

So I haven't posted in a long while which is crazy ahha. I haven't felt like i had much to say. I have been thinkin in the past month since my friend sam's father died about my relationship with my guys. They are just so precious to me. These pics are what we did the night of the funeral, we sat on that couch for hours pretty much just loving each other and trying to be sorta happy or at least normal. They are the best friends i could have asked for. Lots of girls have a ton of sisters and such, and yes i have some of those and they are amazing to me. I have some daughters (metaphorical of course) as well and they are amazing. But look at these goofy guys- they're so funny and so awesome. hahaha they make me laugh. My mom always jokes that on my wedding day where most girls would have a bunch of girls in pretty dresses as their bridesmaids-i'm gonna hve a bunch of guys up there with me haha :)
i love them and Im so blessed by their friendship