Thats the song i'm listening to right now and therefore became the title to my blog...i cry way too much. haha
So I've been thinking about Kenya/Tenwek like a ton! Its been exactly a year since i was thre and I miss it more than ever. Anna talked about Kingdom work being local and my momentary kingdom work in this second is to say if you are reading this go to http://www.tenwek.org/ these people are amazing. THey work so hard to heal the people in their surrounding areas, and by surrounding areas i mean like hundreds of miles away. People come to them from Uganda, Sudan, Tanzania and like everywhere. Not only do they deserve health care but they hear the word of my Father from these people who give everything of themselves to run this hospital. Ok thats my plug for them. I love you guys! Missing you so much praying for you constantly.
so...because of my best friend and because of my unbelievably consistent thoughts about this, I am now going to write about Adoption. I'm totally coppying anna bliss right now and i tots apologize she just got me thinking about it...sorry babe...and now i tangent to anna cause she's the only one that will get this. so i was about to apologize for stealing her thunder and her response was "its ok our thunders can clap at the same time and make the sky even cooler" how much cooler could your best friend be.
ok moving on. I remember my first encounter with adoption. It was a little girl named Elle, she was my best friends little sister in PA they adopted her from russia. Blonde hair and blue eyes. When she got older I would babysit her all the time, when I would her a goofball she would just respond "you're an angel". she was so preious. I miss her. I was probly about 8 when they had her Gotcha day. I was the first one at the party and the last one to leave. Not because I'm awsome but because I thought it was so cool that she didn't have parents (which i was apparently super sensative to at that time my mom says...still am) but that she didn't have parents and that somebody else was now gonna save her. She was a baby and I wouldn't put her down, i was wearing my blue paisly shirt just incase you were wonderng hahaha sorry team. ok so that was the beginning. than some friends of our adopted and like i mean it was everywhere. I've always thougth about it. Similar to what anna said, I suck at relating to my peers. I can be with children or like older women who have impacted me. I love older people who are influential and want to badly to like put into me. anyways orphans
I had a dream last week that I was married (Idk to whom) and living in Africa. My husband asleep next to me and there was a mosquito net around the bed. I was awake reading in my bed bla bla bla and this little chocolate face peered through the mosquito net and crawled up into my lap and went to sleep...then I woke up alone in my dorm room bed, no husband no baby in georgia...woof.
anyways. Orphans. I just want a bunch. I can't wait to have my own children and like teach them to love their mulit colored siblings. I am not saying this to say that like i'm awesome or like that I am so like philanthropic...I am blessed to have awareness about this topic and like experience and like I'm just so lucky.
Anna used the stat that if 8% of proclaimed Christians adopted than the orphan prblem would be solved. SOLVED!
read that again ladies and gentlemen. seriously. I hope to make a pretty big dent in that.
I'm gonna be a mom like Lorelia Gilmore...yes I just went there. Crazy and inviting her daughters boyfriends over and embarrasing the heck out of them. I'm gonna talk to fast and be all over the place and I'm gonna love those kids with everythign I have. I already do and I don't know them. I'm with you guys I dream about it, I think about it. I write about it during lecture when I'm supposed to be paying attention. I seriously just like can't get enough of wondering what its gonna be like. I just had this image of my daddy meeting his adopted grandaughter on her Gotcha day and maybe teared up a little bit. I love thinking about what that first hug will be like, haha i'm gonna cry like so much, my husband is gonna have to be a pretty patient and sturdy man to deal with my tears. I've officially written a ton. but I was in a pretty bad mood when I started this blog and I listened to Beauty will Rise and I wrote about my kids and my life with them, It doesn't get much better than that.
147millionorphans.com...praise Jesus for the kids already being fed :)))))
"There are better things ahead than any we leave behind." -C.S. Lewis
that couldn't be truer. thanks for that truth Jesus.
cs lewis quote=the best is yet to come!!!
ReplyDeletelove what you said...also the post before that is EXACTLY what i've been thinking about today like it's freaky and i was gonna txt you somthingn along those lines but my phone was dead.
i was thinking that isn't it werid how we are always waiting for the next part of life. when you're 10 you want to be 16 and driving. when your 16 you want to be at college, when your in college you want to be married.
today i was thnking i want to be married and i stopped for a minute. i pictured myself rolling over (ps. i really wish i dreamed cause if i did i would want the dream u had last night...i dont dream) and seeing my husband and waking up to the sound of our baby crying. neither of us were annoyed, we just smiled at each other and were so thankful and over joyed at the sound of our child crying. this was liek a day dream thing. so what i decdied is that i need to remember moments like this. moments where i can't wait for my life to be crazy, i can't wait for my babies and to be wakened in the middle of the night. cause when the time comes, i will be gone again, dreaming of something else. does that make sense?
like i should take time to remember when i wanted and dreamed to be a senior in high school. here i am, it's snuck up on me and i've barely even noticed. so when i'm married and life isn't as grand as i once thought married life would be, i should remember my lonely days and how i longed for my messy house and crazy kids.
heart you.
ps. did i really say that about thunder?