Sometimes I just want to be a mother and wife. Haha i know i'm 18 I have time to grow up. I just feel like i was so designed for that facit of life and not like school or idk. In sociology today we watched a video about like inner city kids and their education and such. It made me want to go like and be a teacher and hold kids and read to them and idk just help them. I'm not amazing or anything just wishing thats what i was doin and not writing a research paper. I say this stuff like 'oh I just want to get there' or like 'when I get there that will be IT'. We talked in church last week about how like if we ever find ourselves saying "I have arrived" with something on this earth...We have missed the point. Like if I'm spending my time looking into the future and wondering about where I'm gonna be and how much better its gonna be and all that, I'm not focussing on what God has put me in right now. But sometimes being in the right now is just so flippin hard haha. I'm very pensive right now. sorry i haven't posted in forever...i've been internalizing, thats no good for me. oh well.
My emotions are all over the place. I spent the weekend in Chatta with my family and it was great. It was kinda hard to come back though. I miss turk alot.
Umm wanting to do something cause yesterday was orphan sunday! don't be passive world the difference starts with you. umm I don't know what else to say. interesting.
carries new CD came out and I love it!!! she's awesome. Songs like this is one of my favorites. I don't know what to say. I'm kinda numb right now. I HATE that feeling.
Got to talk to an old friend last night for like an hour and that was super happy.
I"m happy here though :) Really I am. Its finally getting to feel like not just a idk.
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